08 December 2009 @ 11:40 am

guess which friend of yours (finally) has curls after 19.5 years of straight hair?
 
 

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03 December 2009 @ 10:13 pm
it's been seventeen weeks since i said goodbye to freedom. and to reward myself for (what i believe to be) hard work, the boy and i made a trip down to my favourite brand in the world. same old brand, same style as my old one, but a brand new colour from S/S10 (: so incredibly in debt right now. however, i feel like it's worth it cos i really need something to mark the end of my first semester as a college student. wow i feel so old. seems like just yesterday we were at the back row of the school bus, poking fun of the old teacher with the funny permed hair who had the habit of removing her shoes. back when we were 10. and we looked up to secondary school students for being so grown-up and matured.

got a postcard from all the way in berkeley, california today. and what michelle said in her note was so poignant. I realised that i no longer have a good friend (especially one who has been in the same school as me since primary school) who i can see everyday. everyone's dispersed all over the world. sure, i love the people around me now, but they haven't gone through some of the toughest periods of my life. they didn't watch me grow up, as i did for them. and that ..kinda sucks.
 
 
30 November 2009 @ 09:02 am
sitting outside the steps of the train station, opposite Shilin Night Market, huddling a styrofoam bowl and indulging in mango snow ice.
21st November 08 - a day a girl will never forget
seated at Wan Chai stadium watching my sister jump.
polishing off half of the freshest sashimi boat ever with my dad, in a tiny Tokyo hotel
wandering alone around Central, heading back to Wan Chai, grabbing a fish kebab for dinner.
Paris Disneyland: eating BBQ ribs cos my dad wanted to - still feel like gagging nearly a year later
Shanghai, the underground ride of the Pearl Tower
Colorado - playing with the kittens with Sharan
Sydney's apartment and Michelle's birthday 'cake'
the three storey H&M in London
Prague's market with the little wooden toys
the train ride up Jungfraujoch..

every hour of studying brings 5 minutes of memories. I feel like another trip to Taiwan is necessary (there must be a y-tian magnet lying at the top of Taipei 101), frolicking around some Disneyland (doesn't matter which, any one will do), rolling around in snow while resembling a bundled up penguin.. but for many reasons i shan't disclose, i'm gonna stay here this December, waiting for loved ones to be back from everywhere. let's hope the 1 month and 8 days will be good.
 
 
28 November 2009 @ 10:50 pm

I'm not sure how to respond when people ask if i've been studying hard enough. what defines hard? I definitely have been putting more hours in this past semester than the rest of my schooling life. yes, even more than for my As. does that ..show anything? idk. so here's proof that i've been studying hard enough or maybe not )

 
 

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27 November 2009 @ 07:03 pm

need to join the Read more... )
and the disturbing thing is i have maybe another 12 OPIs at home, and 15 random brands ones like Jill Stuart and Canmake. yesss i love my war paints very very much. when you feel more naked nail polish-less than clothes-less, you know how bad that is.
 
 
27 November 2009 @ 08:14 am

i never knew my hair was this messy. and that was after my hair cut. it's been two months since this photo was taken. imagine the decrepit state it is in now.

anyway, i couldn't sleep the night before my accounting paper. so i thought of what Michelle told me. "just close your eyes, take a deep breathe and tomorrow will be over". so i did, and before i knew it .. jeng jeng jeng it was time to wake up! my favourite part of the exam is going back to your study area and packing your notes and textbooks away, with the full knowledge that you don't have to touch them anymore. what a blissful thought (:

and i really love my friends. I have been so caught up in self-misery that i've been ignoring everyone. but they'll text me or message me on msn or facebook to cheer me on / up. so it's five days to freedom, but another five days of misery. gonna be grumpy, annoyed, distressed, depressed for the next few days. so please bear (refer to picture, pun intended) with me.
 
 
24 November 2009 @ 05:57 pm
everyday, i get reminded in a new way how awful i am. and crumb by crumb, my self-confidence dissolves. a year ago, on this very date, i was in Taiwan, celebrating my daddy's birthday. we had Japanese teppanyanki for dinner because he wanted to. it was in an underground restaurant in Ximending, empty except for our family and the two staff. a very quaint place. a year later, my daddy came all the way down to hall to bring me lunch, and i forgot that it's his birthday. and i know his biggest wish is for me to get first class honours, but some grades i've been getting back.. aren't good enough for that. i need straight As, but.. i'm not getting that. my biggest fear is disappointing the people around me, and everyday, i do that because i'm not good enough.

somehow, each time after i cry, i feel exhausted yet relieved. and motivated again about life. maybe that's what keep babies living - crying.
 
 

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21 November 2009 @ 07:20 pm
x )
got back my accounting 101 grades, pretty happy with my mid-term and quiz 2 grades. too bad i did pretty badly at my quiz 1. anyway, back to hall after a two days-break after my disastrous IT exam. am so glad i'm officially done with IT. seriously don't get why an accounting student needs to learn the exact details of TCP/IP, cellular networks and digital certificates work; neither do i understand why xxx hates my seminar group so much that he has to fail people like that. sometimes, staying in school till 3-4am for days doesn't pay off at all if your xxxx is biased. and got fed-up with my nails digging into my palm while i was writing notes for tort law so i chopped them off and now they're non-existent.
 
 
17 November 2009 @ 11:30 pm

what better way to end off a day of contract law and immanuel kant with a little dressing up? mm all the study-snacking has made me quite chubby especially in the thighs and arms, need to start watching my weight. yes it's the belt again. I've been told to stop wearing it, but i have been cursed with the overuse-something-cos-i-love-it-too-much syndrome. am a stockings and garters type of girl so i'd love to wear this out of the bedroom, too bad it's impractical here. I really need this. ) ok, time to curl up with my management info systems textbook. g'night!

 
 
15 November 2009 @ 01:06 am
this marks the end of an era. the era of self-righteousness, of snide remarks and bitchiness. this also marks the end of giving myself grace to indulge in perverse and ridiculous actions. this also gives me the strength to be strong and battle the monsters within me. no more disorders, anymore. I'm sorry. 15 Nov 2009, 1:05am.